What seems like the right thing to do could also be the hardest thing you have ever done in your life.
Everything happened just how I did not want it to. I wanted to be your heartbreaker, but instead I ended having my heart broken by you. I could not help falling in love with you, I gave you everything I have and you just tore it apart.
I have learnt that I can not trust my heart to someone so easily, so I will just wait until love calls me, even though I am not sure I could love someone like I love you.
The first time I put my eyes on you I thought ‘oh what a cutie’ and when you look back at me and with those blue eyes, I couldn’t believe it. Then something magical happened, and you smile and I smile and then we were kissing. We lost contact for a month, I thought that it was going to be a one night boy, but then you talked to me again and I just couldn’t believe you remember me. You wanted to see me again and I want it too. Then a day I went out and destiny wanted us to meet again. It was all sexual but I didn’t care. Two weeks later, Valentine’s day, I went to your home and since that day we started to meet and it’s been a while now and you consider your girl and everything seems so perfect. Maybe it’s just a fling, maybe not, but I just want to enjoy it until it’s over.
Each time we meet I feel butterflies and I get so nervous but when I see you and you smile I forget everything and I just have eyes for you, and when I get home and I subconsciously started thinking about you I can’t seem to find anything bad. I like when you say you want someone you can trust and I fool with you. You seem so vulnerable and so confident at the same time. People say love is blind, maybe I’m just blind.
Be yourself be Bhaltair.
Each moment spent beside you makes me discover something new about me. It’s like you rediscover a new part of myself. You make me feel alive. I want to be with you and only you. I’ve never thought I could be like this, but it’s something new for me and I want it to be a bit more special. I feel the need to express this is some way so here it is, even if I know that you’re not gonna read it. Be yourself be Bhaltair.
…if you’re for real or if it’s just an illusion of my mind. You’re making me crazy and I don’t want to get involved that much because you’re gonna hurt me. I need to know if you’re in this just as much as me, because if you are then I won’t have a problem to start getting more and more together. I need an answer. This is making me insane. I want you so bad. Tell me you want me and I’m all yours.
I feel like nothing exists
It’s like we touch the sky
And I swear I can fly
Cause nothing else matters
If you held me in my arms
So I’m just gonna ask
Would you don’t let me fall
Please don’t tear our lips apart.
Everything starts with a smile and our eyes meet. You say something to your friend and I pretend to look at something in my phone. I see you laughing with your friend and I think maybe it’s about me. Then your friend comes to me and asks me to dance and I say yes just to continue the story and see your reaction. The song ends and I stop dancing. We all sit and cheer and when I finished my drink you come to me, smile and I smile back at you like a fool. Then you extend your hand at me and I feel like smiling more. You ask me if I wanted to dance and I feel silly for not take your hand right when you extend it, but you still ask and I say yes in a low tone that you almost missed. We dance, well more I follow you because I’m too nervous to dance properly and you laugh when I say it aloud. After dancing 3 songs, which I don’t know but I don’t really care about, you give me another drink to cheer with you and to get less nervous. My friends tell me that you are interested in me and I laugh because that’s what happens to me too and it’s almost absurd. I look at you and you smile and I laugh because I don’t really believe what my friends say. A few minutes later you extend your hand again and I don’t doubt it this time. I take your hand and while we’re dancing we talk and maybe, just maybe I start to think that it’s true what my friends say. You ask me if I have a boyfriend, I say no and ask you the same and you doubt but say no. I feel like missing something though I don’t care. Everything change when someone tell me you have a girlfriend, but you don’t really like her. That’s when all change. I start to dance more provocatively that way you will feel more attracted to me. Then you ask for my number and I give it to you knowing that you probably won’t use it. We say goodbye, you make your way home and I make mine. At home I think about all that happens and feel asleep hoping to see you again.
Be yourself be bhaltair.
Not the typical girl trying to go for the oh-so-typical-boy and that’s where all started. A game with two winners, you and I or one loser, me. The thing is I’m a bad loser so better stop acting like a jerk and do what you feel. All your friends know, all my friends know, but there’s a girlfriend in the way, and that you don’t care about, so if you don’t care why should I; from now there won’t be boundaries between us, even if she is there. I’m gonna get you to wish me and want me like you’ve never done towards anyone before and it’s gonna make you crazy about it and I’m so going to enjoy it. The end would be you going after me, and maybe, just maybe, I’ll let you catch me…
When I’m not with you I spend counting each minute, and it feels like an eternity until I get to see you again. “Cause it’s you and me and all of the people with nothing to do nothing to lose and it’s you and me and all of the people and I don’t know why I can’t keep my eyes off of you”.